songs

TEEN

As I sit here thinking about you,
I get these thoughts that I still want to be with you,
I tried to tell how I really felt,
And I ain't gonna speak a lie,
Cause I'm just biting my tongue,
And letting my veins run dry,

Hey Teen, I got something to say,
Hey Teen, will you come back to me someday?
Hey Teen, you said you loved me and now look where we are,
Hey Teen, I'm falling apart because of you,

You said that you would call me,
I'm sitting in my dark room waiting for your call,
In the slow passing moments, I can see all that we shared,
There's no way I can be prepared for this new life,

Why cant you see, that I love you so much,
And that I long for the day to feel your touch,
All I ever wanted was to be by your side,
My feelings are immortal and will never subside,

Even with my broken heart,
I can still look at you and say,
I LOVE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE!
I ALWAYS WANT TO BE THERE FOR YOU!
I WILL NEVER HURT YOU LIKE YOU HURT ME!
I WILL LOVE YOU UNTIL THE DAY I DIE!

Hey Teen, will you love me again?
Hey Teen, will you be my guiding star again?
Hey Teen, will you leave me out here to die and rot again?
Hey Teen, why are things so fucked up with you again



i wrote this essay about the song "until the day i die"

and there is alot of personal experience in this so bare with me.

this was an english project, it had to be written in the first person. so no im not trying to rewrite the song.

when i first started thinking about writting a song, i was feeling alot. i love this girl so much and the only way i could prove it to her was through song. you see, i made alot of mistakes. pressured in alot of places i shouldnt have. but when i wrote down ideas for this song, i often remember when she reminded me of who i am inside.

        to be very honest, if she were here right now, i would tell her that i would walk through a thousand miles of fire just to get to her. ive spilt my heart for her so many times before. but now i think i hate her because of the fact that i never got anything back...well with the exception of my heart handed to me in peices. i often remember when we would say "remember when" and "what if" or even "i love you so". but i guess she will never know, damn thats a thought that kills.

        there are so many things i wish i could tell her. things like "i would die for you" or "i will take the fall for you". this all may be an obsession. mabeys its love, or perhaps another bust in my life. all these years i have been working torward a day where we could just be together. but its just another piece missing from my life as it stands now. all i can say is "until the day i die; i continue to spill my heart for you". i think this is going to become an excellent song; i want to prove my love to her. but on the other hand, i just wish this could all fall into the night and leave me unscarred and happy.

        im too young for this, too proud, too damn strong to let this pull me down. but little by little, inch by inch, day by day, i feel this odd force yanking the life out of me. my strenght dwindles. it will until the day i die, until i fall to her grave. im fighting a loosing battle, i just cant win. i always promised myself that i would let this happen to me, but i guess it did. im just so fustrated that i spent four fucking years chasing after something that i cant have. if she were here right now, i would scream into her face, "UNTIL THE DAY I DIE, I SPILL MY HEART FOR YOU!"

       i let my self crash, i let my self burn, i fall to my knees accusing my self of being so stupid. im to young for this, im growing up to fast, feeling like i never had a childhood. i yell for help, i cry to the stars, i asked why am i like this? IS THERE ANYONE OUT THERE WHO CAN HEAR ME OUT?! today i should be free to move about my soul, but im just searching another empty hole in my heart. no one can see me more or less than a friend. but i want to be more with her, but she just turned me down agian. this is one more scar, another burnt out star in the sky i look upon. i know we made the same mistakes as friends do. but god damit, she turned on me agian. i cry to the sky asking "why should I die when i ask for ME back? i hope my words kick down the doors she closed to me that painfull night.

       i cant help but to wonder if i have wasted so many nights yet so many heart breaking fights on her. if she were here, i wouldnt miss a beat, wouldnt stutter on a single word, I WILL NOT DENY MY LOVE FOR HER! this is all an anthem of feelings, sacrafice, and devotion. this song is to be heard by millions and it will touch those who listen. it will also show what i have gone through for her. i hope she is among them.

       twice and agian, all i have to say is "until the day i die; im here waiting for you. my fist wrapped tight around the heart i spilt for you"...

Half the time.

Im out side looking in
letting the rain drops of my life run down your windows pane.
i know that it would have taken half the time to fix our mistakes,
but you think i should die and rot in pain.
you say you have no time for my solutions,
you wish i would just kill myself every day,
that i would bury myself alive so i can decay into your past.

contrasting the emotions,
i just wish i could be loved one more time.
show me how it ended,
why its overated!
it would take half the time to fix our mistakes,
but you'd rather watch me feel the burn of hate.

your voice betrays me,
cant get you outta my head,
making things so complicated,
i run the other way hopping to find the answer.
my mind fills with lament and endlessness.

each step brings me one step closer to my last,
each tear drains my soul,
each word destroys my mind,
each move kills my heart so cold...


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